Aye aye, all ahead full Captain

A friend of mine has shown me lately just how important it is to embrace what God has given you and not to be shy about it but rather be thankful. Perhaps not be prideful about it, persay, but knowing very matter-of-factly what it is you are capable of and trying to push that limit daily.

When I look back at my life of 20.5 (YES, ONE AND A HALF YEARS OLDER THAN LEAH but that’s a post coming soon) and think, I don’t see times where I pushed myself. I see times when I folded. I see times when the pressure was too much or the work was a little too hard (read: required actual work!). I see times when I didn’t take the risks I should have and instead risked living a life of meaninglessness. I’ve only taken a few risks in my life, and up until recently have they not only been poor decisions but often times I’ve ended up being burned.

I’ve known Jesus for five years, and I can’t tell you how many times I flat-out ignored Him in that span of time. I feel like an old-tyme (hehe time with a y) steamliner operator. The captain has given the “All-Ahead Full” command, to push forward and trust that His guidance will be enough. Instead I let the bad boy (I’m a steamliner: wooh wooh) sit on 5%, barely tapping the potential and hardly moving, if at all, against the current. You may say, “But Andrew, going slow can be a good thing!” Right, it can be. But how is going slow a good thing if you’re not even out of the port yet? If it takes you five years to get to sea, perhaps it’s time to ignore the Wake-Free Zone laws (ooh allegory) and push it up a few notches. Maybe not to All-Ahead Full, but something!

Now, however, I’m ready to listen. I’m ready to move forward on this journey that has one port of call: eternity, and we arrive today.

PS
I’m so happy that I’ve taken the ultimate risk: forgoing senseless sensuality and selfishness in the faith that Jesus has paid the unpayable and has done so out of love. I for one, as someone who has been burned, feel like that is too great of a risk to not go unrewarded and unrequited.

I’ve also taken a few other risks latey: I put myself out there (and it wasn’t what I would have ideally wanted but I’m so happy I did), I went back into Biological Sciences, and I’m doing Elevate.

The biggest risk of all? Living at home for the time being. Ugh. (Just kidding!)

(… Kind of.)

~ by Andrew on August 29, 2007.