Who is Friedriches? II

I’d recommend reading part I before reading this page.

Your whole life they tell you to expect the unexpected, to live life on your toes, to keep your guard up and play ahead of the game- but stay in the moment, stand still and calm, and try to not overreact. They tell you that stuff will be hard. They tell you that you will just “know.” They tell you it will cost something. They tell you it will be natural. They tell you it will be something you have to work at daily. They tell you that you’ll never be able to do that. They tell you you can do anything. They tell you that you are the pride of the family and they can’t wait to see what you’re capable of. They tell you that you’re nothing compared to the other one, the one who actually has a work ethic and a sense of pride.

And one day, I got tired of hearing it and I decided to listen to this guy.

Sure, I was already walking down the path. The journey that started in part I was a great one, one filled with promise, shining bright and new. That which is fresh and exciting is always easy. However, after time, that sparkley thing starts to get a little worn. Some of the sheen comes off of it, and rather quickly at that. Things that seemed exciting and new seem old hat, common, familiar- maybe even boring.

The process of becoming a man the man was not anything new any more. There was nothing to it. Be ready to learn. Hold on to nothing and expect everything to be temporary. Appreciate every day as the gift from God that it truly is. Most importantly, be ready to fail; expect to be humbled, broken, and wrong.

And here I am today not far from completing the first leg of the trip that ends with my passing from this world to the next. This leg was easy- just get to the end of college, start a career, find the love of your life. Or, it seemed easy enough. Of course, most of the time I’ve spent on this leg was wondering around in circles without seemingly going anywhere. Now that I have direction things are moving rapidly, but there is still much to be accomplished, and much still in a haze. Things I thought I had answers to are no longer clear.

Fancy language aside: I simply want to do what He wants for me. I need to die. I’m done.

I’m hurting and broken and alone, and that is just where I need to be. Do I miss [...]? Yes. I do already. But I know that in time, things will be far greater because as I walk for Him, the plan WILL come to fruition.

I await with breath abated the end of this leg. Can you feel the excitement?